March 2012
43 posts
Sorry ive been so absent.
Im busy as hellll lately.=\
I havent had a chance to work out in like 3days
And i feel terrible, ive been up to my eyeballs in classwork and everything but i feel like, fat.
Tomorrow should be an easy day so i should be able to hit the gym. If not i might just rip my hair out.
Just when im starting to really get over my ex
I message her ( idk why,Its the first time ive talked to her since i left for NY) And she seemed pretty excited to talk to me(not a typical reaction). Then she kept saying things that implied her and her bf werent doing well and right before she left she said she was sorry about what she did to me and that she hopes we can hang out when i come back for the summer.
Im pretty sure id never go back...
Im so tired lately
I seriously have like, no energy. Idk what happened. Im just so bluhh this week. =\
SUP
Off to the gym, even though im tired as hell. lol
Im not looking foward to tomorrow morning
My chef is seriously ruining my first semester for me. He makes cooking and the rushed atmosphere i love unfun, i havent enjoyed myself in a class since i got here and it sucks. Not to mention the people in my classes are all fucking imbeciles.
It really bothers me
When my ex gf blogs about songs by my favorite band that i showed her. She needs to stop it.
Today sucks
Everyone in my school is already getting ready for parties, all my friends are back home getting ready for my favorite bands show, and im sitting here in my dorm wishing i was back in the 219. I never thought id miss it as much as i do.
And not to mention i havent seen TWY in like 8 or 9 months, and i had a ticket to the show today, and if theres a time i need one of their shows its now.
...
So today was interesting
I ate A LOT
I dont even know why, i didnt even realize it until i was full. I was REALLY craving a hamburger, so i ate one
and some fries
and some halibut
and desserts
and bread
then about 5 hours later i ate some coconut beef curry
and bread
and dessert
It was ridiculous, so i kicked my own ass in the gym
I bumped my usual 30 min treadmill workout to an hour, and went harder with my...
I just went to my actual tumblr for the first time...
And i seriously have the worst blog, its so boring. Ive gotta try harder lol
Guys
I want a pizza so bad. Ive ordered one every friday since i got here, but im debating whether or not i should this friday. I feel like i deserve something but at the same time I dont want to ruin anything=\
I still cant believe im in new york
I miss my friends a lot though, i cant really relate with anyone out here, it seems like if you dont listen to rap, party, or smoke its impossible to make friends anywhere. Story of my life.
On the upper hand i just suppress my loneliness at the gym, so its paying off in some ways lol
Im starting to notice major changes in my stamina and strength, so thats good.
Its tuesday
i want to see terrible, terrible things in my ask when i get back from the gym, as well as normal questions. I dont want to be bored tonight.
Not weighing myself is probably the best thing ive...
I feel like im approaching the 280s, and im so stoked to go home and find out how mucbh ive lost. And even if that scale only says 295, i wont care because i really know how much my body is chaning.
OH COOL
A cute girl walks into my room with my roommate( whos gay, so i know shes not with him) and we start talking about good music and stuff. Awesome right?
Well, she left and when they came back they were talking about how shes getting married to her bf when she graduates. sweeeet right? I think not. =|
Woke up hungry as helllll
But of course i have no food, so i have to take a shower and get dressed to go to the cafe. =[
findingfitness asked: if you were a color, what color would joo be?
IM STILL BORED
And noone put anything ridiculous in my ask =\ Weekends at this school suckkk
Guys, im bored
Ask me anything. Anon or not ill answer it, be as ridiculous as youd like.
Im so sore
And tired. Im gonna try not to go to the gym tomorrow, just for a walk or something, cause i seriously need a break. Im still doing good though!
I need food
I have no food in my dorm and i cant go to the cafe until my clothes are finished drying. Dorm life sucks sometimes.
Just got back from the gym
Went twice today. I guess not having friends pays off in some ways lol
just spent a good 2 hours in the gym
sure 30 min of that was in a sauna but who cares, i had a blast and i feel great. Now im relaxing and watching charlie and the chocolate factory ( the gene wilder version)
Its been the busiest few days of my life
Ive gone to the gym every day so far but today and im exhausted.
Not to mention i still dont feel very comfortable here.
Im losing weight, getting good grades, im just not happy, but im working on it.
It feels so weird when i lay down.
I feel smaller, which for some girls would be great but i dont really like it.
I like being the big guy, not to be confused with being the fat guy.
Its just going to take some getting used to.
Not to mention when i lay down it feels weird, cause theres not as much fat between my bones and my mattress. I know its a good sign though, so i have mixed emotions.
Didnt work out today
Mostly because i did something to my neck last night that messed it up, but im sure im fine, my eating was fine.
So i kind of made friends
But im not enjoying myself. These people dont understand me. I cant have those late night diner talks with them. I barely know these people and i just wish i was with my real friends. It took me so long to find people i felt comfortable around and as soon as i do i have to leave.
I feel like theres a part of myself missing, its awful.
Not to mention cheyannes life seems to be going great. Fuck...
My biggest weight loss problem
Im so freaking cold all the time.
Just gpt back from the gym
I did a circuit targeting my back and i feel awful now, especially my lower back.
Laying down with a chobani and unsweetened tea ( probably my favorite weight loss snack) and watching some tv / probably falling asleep.
Tomorrow is ” kyle needs to practice his precision cuts so chef gives him a good grade” Also, i get a new roommate. LEGGO
Anonymous asked: I think you go to my school. Maybe.
When i get home
I want to see that scale say something in the range of 260-275
soooo bad.
Lower would be better obviously, but i would be fucking ecstatic if i was in that range, especially since 265 would be my 50 pound mark.
Well
Were not allowed to use our free meal swipes at the cafe at my school for breakfast anymore.
So i have no breakfast, i have to wait until 2 =\
At least ive got some oj=]
So i spent all day today thinking it was monday
lol oops
So ive got to confess
I got on a scale today. It was a balance scale so what i did was slide everything to read 300 lbs and stepped on to see if i was above or below. I was below! =]
Just got back from the student gym at my school
Im nice and sore and sweaty. feels good.
Relaxing with a chobani and unsweetened iced tea waiting for my 4th and final roommate to show up.
Ive suddenly had a burst of new followers!
Hello everyone!
My names kyle, whats yours?
Im always open for inbox chatter.
An update
The reason I didn’t take a progress picture today is because i haven’t made any progress
My weight loss slowed/stopped and I’m guessing i haven’t lost more than .5 lbs this week.
But my lifestyle has to be about being proactive rather than reactive right?
So reactively went to the gym and got about a 20 minute run in before they kicked me out because they were closing (...