Since my pants dont even fit me with a belt on...
I just ordered a new pair of jeans size 38 waist. ( my other jeans were a 42) Hopefully they fit. Im gonna be working out extra hard until they come.
You guys are probably wondering what the hell...
Well ive been swamped with classwork and group meetings and stuff. I got a little disorganized and everything kind of just fell apart the last week. I maintained-ish my weight though, ive only gained back a couple pounds and i plan on getting back in the gym full time this week after my tests and practicals on tuesday and wednesday. Ill also be putting up a progress pic this saturday =]
Sorry ive been so absent.
Im busy as hellll lately.=\
I havent had a chance to work out in like 3days
And i feel terrible, ive been up to my eyeballs in classwork and everything but i feel like, fat. Tomorrow should be an easy day so i should be able to hit the gym. If not i might just rip my hair out.
Just when im starting to really get over my ex
I message her ( idk why,Its the first time ive talked to her since i left for NY) And she seemed pretty excited to talk to me(not a typical reaction). Then she kept saying things that implied her and her bf werent doing well and right before she left she said she was sorry about what she did to me and that she hopes we can hang out when i come back for the summer. Im pretty sure id never go back...
Im so tired lately
I seriously have like, no energy. Idk what happened. Im just so bluhh this week. =\
Off to the gym, even though im tired as hell. lol
Im not looking foward to tomorrow morning
My chef is seriously ruining my first semester for me. He makes cooking and the rushed atmosphere i love unfun, i havent enjoyed myself in a class since i got here and it sucks. Not to mention the people in my classes are all fucking imbeciles.
Its crazy how much this band has helped me in the...
It really bothers me
When my ex gf blogs about songs by my favorite band that i showed her. She needs to stop it.
Everyone in my school is already getting ready for parties, all my friends are back home getting ready for my favorite bands show, and im sitting here in my dorm wishing i was back in the 219. I never thought id miss it as much as i do. And not to mention i havent seen TWY in like 8 or 9 months, and i had a ticket to the show today, and if theres a time i need one of their shows its now. ...
So today was interesting
I ate A LOT I dont even know why, i didnt even realize it until i was full. I was REALLY craving a hamburger, so i ate one and some fries and some halibut and desserts and bread then about 5 hours later i ate some coconut beef curry and bread and dessert It was ridiculous, so i kicked my own ass in the gym I bumped my usual 30 min treadmill workout to an hour, and went harder with my...
I just went to my actual tumblr for the first time...
And i seriously have the worst blog, its so boring. Ive gotta try harder lol
I want a pizza so bad. Ive ordered one every friday since i got here, but im debating whether or not i should this friday. I feel like i deserve something but at the same time I dont want to ruin anything=\
I still cant believe im in new york
I miss my friends a lot though, i cant really relate with anyone out here, it seems like if you dont listen to rap, party, or smoke its impossible to make friends anywhere. Story of my life. On the upper hand i just suppress my loneliness at the gym, so its paying off in some ways lol Im starting to notice major changes in my stamina and strength, so thats good.
i want to see terrible, terrible things in my ask when i get back from the gym, as well as normal questions. I dont want to be bored tonight.
Not weighing myself is probably the best thing ive...
I feel like im approaching the 280s, and im so stoked to go home and find out how mucbh ive lost. And even if that scale only says 295, i wont care because i really know how much my body is chaning.